Yesterday was hard

At my company, thanks to a contract negotiated by the union, we get Federal Election days as a company Holiday. I am not a member of the union, but the offices are also closed. So, biannually I get the second Tuesday of November off. Whenever this comes up on the calendar, I automatically book the day before as a vacation day. It gives me a nice, long weekend in early November to work on some pre-holiday projects around the house. My wife’s company doesn’t get election day off, and she gets fewer vacation days in general than I do, so I spend these two days home alone. Yesterday was particularly difficult for me in terms of my journey.

In past years I would have risen with my wife, seen her off to work, and then headed out for a super tasty, fast food breakfast. It was a special day, so I’d probably have opted for something like the steak, egg and cheese on a bagel at McDonald’s. Then I would have come home and worked on my projects for the morning. At lunch time I would probably have headed out to Wendy’s for a more “healthy” alternative. Probably something like a Junior Bacon Cheeseburger, and whatever they call their grilled chicken wrap. Later, when my wife got home, I’d have a full dinner.

I don’t even want to calculate what the Weight Watchers Points Plus would be for that kind of an extravaganza, but I think I am safe when I say that it would likely approach double what my allowed points are today. Did I mention that in between all those meals I’d have probably had some tasty, salty snacks?

Since March 1, I have been re-teaching myself about eating. I am actively working to break my old eating habits. I now try to only consume foods that have points at meal times, and have zero point snacks between meals. I do allow myself a few points in the evening for some Skinny Pop popcorn, but generally speaking, if it isn’t meal time I try not to consume points.

Yesterday was hard. All day long I kept thinking about making a trip out for food. I had to run an errand that took me past one of my favorite diners, and thought about stopping for lunch. After all, a salad or a gyro at a diner is better than Wendy’s, right?

I am happy to say that I didn’t succumb to the temptation. I had my own breakfast at home (2 scrambled eggs with some mushroom and two thin slices of ham, accompanied by a single piece of toast), and I avoided the diner. For lunch I had a half of a ham sandwich with some cheese. But all day long I wanted more. The fruit that I normally have as a snack weren’t satisfying me. It was a struggle.

Ultimately I won out in the struggle. I stayed on points for the day, and went to bed feeling good about my choices.

I guess the point of this post is that as far as I have come, it is still not automatic for me. My old patterns, my old habits are still there, lurking just below the surface. I made good choices yesterday, and I plan to make good ones today, but the temptation is always still present.

How are you doing with re-teaching yourself about eating? What mechanisms do you have in place to help keep yourself on track?

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  1. I struggle with falling back into those old habits, too. In my job, we sometimes work very long hours, and the thing I would normally do after my hour drive home on top of that long day would be to stop and pick up a pizza or dinner from Burger King. I guess the up side to the long drive is that I also have plenty of time to talk myself out of the easy alternative and think about what healthy dinner I could put together quickly instead. I don’t always win this struggle, but I have not once stopped at Burger King (which is directly on my way home and less than a mile from my house) since I started on this journey. I guess the best mechanism I have in place for nights like this is the prepping I do on Sundays, making sure I have ready-made food available in the house. And pep talks. Lots of pep talks.

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  2. Being at home…is the worst!

    Well done and staying the course…I know exactly how hard it is. You deserve a cape or medal for that! lol

    I find when at home…no amount of fruit and healthy food will do. Something I still battle with over weekends. When in a routine at work, I am 100% fine…weekends….Oi.

    Definitely not automatic for me to want fruit over chocolate or plain yoghurt over cake. But I try… If I know I want to indulge in some cake on a Saturday, I make sure my breakfast is as clean as possible and no snacking in between and the cake will be my lunch. Not the best idea I know, but it beats the alternative, where in the old days it was: ‘I’m having cake today, may as well pig out all day!’. Baby steps… I wonder if there will ever be a day where I don’t want the junk 😦

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    1. There will be a day, but it takes a long time of replacing the habit with something new, and establishing a pattern of success. It’s not automatic for me, and I still want the junk, but I am less likely to give in today than I was even a few months ago.

      Stay strong

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