The struggle is real, and never gets easier

In my last post I talked of my triumphant, post-Thanksgiving weigh in. Since then, the tale of the scale hasn’t been so kind, and I am frustrated.

My actual weigh-in day is not until Friday. This is one of those weeks when I haven’t been following my own advice, and I have been stepping on the scale every morning. What I’ve been seeing I haven’t liked. Since Friday, every day that I have weighed myself I have been 1 to 3 pounds higher than my weigh in. And, I am frustrated.

Part of this may rest on my own head. I haven’t been updating my weight watchers food tracker. But, I also haven’t eaten anything outside my pattern. No large portions. No ridiculous leftovers. No binging. So, while I am not 100% sure that I have eaten within my points, I am fairly confident. today I am back on track with tracking.

I’ve been doing my walking challenge. I took the weekend off, but since then have logged at least 6km a day (I will post a new view of the tracker later).

One thing that may be TMI, but also may explain the unexpected gain is that I have been irregular. My system usually goes like clock work, but in the last month or so I have noticed the patterns have changed. I can go several days with not action, and I happen to be in the middle of one of those stretches right now.

It is entirely possible that between now and Friday I will shed the waste, and will either be down for the week, or even. Or, I may be up. I won’t know until then.

The reason I am writing this post is at the suggestion of my wife. I have had an amazingly successful ride this year with my Journey toward better health… I have posted many positive results along the way. One thing I don’t talk about is how hard it is. I don’t really like getting up at 4:00am to work out (in fact I didn’t today). I miss some of the snacks and fast food that I used to indulge in. I don’t like being beholden to the food tracker, and on and on. It truly is a struggle to always do the right things for my health, but, at the end of the day, I know that for me all those things are the best and right thing to do if I want to live a long and healthy life.

I have a written list of questions for my doctor. On Friday I will also be sharing my lab results. I have seen them, and they are much improved from back in February, and even since June.

Today I just wanted to share with you all that I struggle every day with this. I keep a positive outlook, and most days I end up feeling great about my choices. None of that negates the fact that this is work. It is work that I eagerly take on, but it is work nonetheless.

 

5 comments

  1. It is hard work and not a pleasurable one at that. Pleasure is in our taste buds. I completely agree with feeling tired of it at some point. I was reaching that point with my pregnancy. Constantly monitoring, constantly second guessing etc. But in the end, I know you love the weigh-in days. So work towards those goals.

    As a side note, I don’t think I know how old you are, but a colonoscopy is a good idea when the bowels change habits. If you regularly get them and aren’t due for a certain period of time, then ignore my advise. if not, please don’t ignore this symptom. Have you tried hot water lemon with green tea or no tea? I find that when I up my protein intake, I need extra help to clear up the bowels.

    Good luck!

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    1. I am 52. I had a colonoscopy 2 years ago, and was told I don’t need one for 10 years. But, we will see what my doctor thinks tomorrow morning. Thank you for the thought!

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  2. Yeah, I totally understand the struggle, but I love coming on and reading your blog, while I haven’t been updating my own, I’ve kept updated with others. I love how even though it’s hard you still manage to keep a positive attitude. As for not being regular, I was like that for a while and recently got diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome. Could it be that maybe? Keep up the good work.

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