I grew up reading the Peanuts comic strip on a very regular basis. I even had a few books with collections of Peanuts strips. One thing I remember is how when things weren’t quite going Charlie Brown’s way, he would get this look on his face. It showed his frustration and exasperation very well. I call it “Charlie Brown’s Crooked Smile.” Above is a scene from the Christmas special that perfectly depicts what I am talking about.
Here is what my recent weigh-ins have looked like:
In my eyes there is an uncanny similarity between my recent progress chart, and Charlie Brown’s Smile.
Yup, you guessed it, I am UP again today. For week 57 I am at 227.4 pounds, or up 1.2 pounds from last week. Today my face, my weight loss chart and Charlie Brown’s smile could all be superimposed without much difference between them.
Yes, I do know that if I look from 13-Feb to today that I have lost weight. It’s about 3 pounds. Yes, I know that any downward trend is good news. And, if I were giving advice to anyone but myself, I would be offering them words of encouragement, telling them to feel good about the fact that they are losing weight in net. I’d be reminding them that they are down 117 pounds from where they were just 13 months ago. I’d be telling them to keep their chin up, and keep doing all the right things that I know they are doing every day. Stay the course, the pounds will come, but in the meantime enjoy the journey and know that you have accomplished so much so far, and you will most definitely reach your goal if you just keep your shoulder to the wheel.
Yes, I know all those things.
I am my own worst critic. And when I have a weigh in like this, it really does grate on my nerves. I followed a good plan this week, and seeing a gain – even a small one – frustrates me.
Today starts the Easter Holiday weekend. I’ll be feasting with my family on Sunday, and I know that will be a day when I go over my points limit. I’ll be relying on my weekly points, my activity points, and my ability to correct on other days to keep me on course for the week. It will most definitely be worth it. I love Holidays with my family. We’ll all laugh and have a great time together. If the pattern holds true, next week on Friday I should weigh about 225, or even a little less.Time will tell.
This weekend I am also tweaking my work out routine to get me to something that will be sustainable, and start to work out other muscle groups besides just my legs. I’ll keep you posted on that.
I know that some of you will want to send me words of encouragement, and I truly do appreciate them. I just want you all to know that while I am not completely pleased with the results today, I am still dedicated to my own success. I will work harder this week at the plan, and I do, really know that it will pay off!